Starting Anew

I only have one resolution this year.

Do whatever makes me happy.

I used to write stupid long lists of resolutions I was never going to keep to past the clock striking, things I thought I should be doing, and not really focusing on what I needed. Here’s a few examples for you. I have this really huge pink notebook that I’ve been writing in since I was about 16, and in the back, amidst the Christmas present lists, and various crossed out sketches, are my old resolutions lists.

2008

Eighteen year old me took a lot of time over her list, bullet pointing every one with a heart.  Some resolutions seem very grounded, Think more positively, Surround myself with the right people, and Be Grateful for all I have. But some were never going to come to fruition. I never did do enough exercise, and never did plan what I was going to do later in life. Hell, I still don’t know three years on! I put ticks next to the ones I thought I had fulfilled…but I’m not sure that I really did…

2009

A lot smaller list, smaller handwriting, lot more conservative. Stars for bulletpoints this time round. No ticks, and apparently written ‘in no particular order’. I never did buy a Nintendo Wii, I never thought they got reduced by enough. I did pass my driving test however, but that was a bit short lived as I only drove for about 6 months or so after I passed. Move into my own house is there, but that was because I wanted to, not because I wanted to do it with the person I was with at the time. I actually did learn to ride a bike….sort of…still can’t do it properly, and the exercise thing still went unfulfilled.

2010

Still telling myself to do more exercise apparently. I did some anyway, I did tapdancing! Stupid me. Apparently I told myself to not spend so much time on my phone as well. I guess that was because I thought I was being rude…it’s so socially accepted to be welded to your phone nowadays that I think I can shrug that one off. Find out what makes me happy. Well, I guess I’ve found it, although it took me till March 2011 to find it. And now I just have to go after it.

This year is going to be hard at times, but the rewards are going to be so huge that it’ll all seem trivial in comparison. I really can’t wait to get started. I can’t wait to start this new chapter of my life! Bring it, 2012.

N x